Year One.
It’s been a year since Evelyn was taken from us. I’ve been thinking about what I would write here on this day. I tried, but I don’t have anything left to say that I haven’t already said before. She’s gone and she’s not coming back. We are left to pick up the pieces and learn how to live without her. All we have left are memories of her. Be they good or not so good, they are all we have. There are pictures and videos, but they won’t talk back, they can’t.
We miss her every day and that is the way of things. It’s not fair, but it is what it is. I can’t dwell on a future of what might have been and I can’t live in what has passed. All I can do–all that any of us can do–is live in the here and now. Yes, life is less full and life less happy, but that is the way of things when someone we love is taken from us.
What we can do is be inspired by Evy. We can be inspired by her beauty, her sense of humor, and her compassion for others. Remember something she did for you and pay that forward to someone else. Not just today, but everyday.
I am so grateful for you. how you have carried yourself through this life experience, and have bared your soul to the reality of what has happened. you have been the husband and father you were meant to be and have been there for them as well. it is mind numbing to even begin to put ourselves in your place and try to say we understand when we can’t. all i know is i love you and i am proud of you and i have learned so much from you. i know it may not be comforting to know that we continue to pray for you, and thats ok. it is who i am and what i do and will continue until my last breath. 🙂 all my love, John
Hi John,
Thank you for your kind words. Thank you for praying for us. Although I don’t believe, the intent means everything to me and to my family. I love you too.
So true Wade. No take backs, no do overs. So sorry for your loss, I understand it well. We have today, friend. My thoughts are with you.
Wade…after reading all of your blog, my heartmindsoul goes out to you and your family. I can see that you love your daughter and trust me…that love NEVER goes away. Hang tough and know that you have friends who care out here. *hug*
Thank you Barbara!